Ok, here is part 2 of the story I posted earlier this week. If you haven’t read Part 1 you should probably go do that now here.
If you have already read part 1, I have done a little editing to it so you may want to reread it. They are minor edits but I think they make a difference.
Here is part two.
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That night Herman sat in his sparse kitchen staring at the green gelatin. It merely sat there quivering slightly as a listless breeze stirred the curtains. He had sweated all afternoon about the green cubes tucked in his shirt pocket, it was forbidden to take rations from the room. Even now in his small apartment he whipped his head back and forth fearing that they were Watching. The sun sank slowly to oblivion and still Herman stared at the perplexing gelatin, it hadn’t done anything since lunch but Herman couldn’t take his eyes off it.
He dreamed again that night, chasing after the family along the green covered rocks. This time they were singing, but he couldn’t make out the words, if only he could get closer! He broke into a lopsided run his short pudgy legs moving as fast they could. Sweat beaded out against his forehead and he could feel the grey wool shirt clinging to his arms and back. Faster and faster he pumped his short legs pounding them against the soft green covering but no matter what he did the family was always just out of range. The smallest girl turned and beckoned to him, waving him closer. Her long blonde hair waved in the wind, she giggled and skipped away.
Herman woke in a sweat sitting upright in his narrow bed. Strange sensations flooded his body, his breathing was fast and ragged, a harried tempo beat in his ears and chest and he felt alert like never before. Herman threw back the thin covers and stumbled to the closet that held his clothes. The green cubes were still wrapped in the napkin and tucked in the back corner of the closet, right where he had left them earlier that night. Slowly Herman pulled out a white undershirt and held it limp in his left hand. With the gelatin in one hand and the shirt in the other he moved towards the bathroom.
The tin mirror reflected a rough haggard face, unshaven with black circles bagging under the eyes which were wide and frightful. Herman spread the shirt out over the seat of the toilet, mechanically pressing out the wrinkles with his hands. He brought the first cube towards the shirt, hesitated, and then vigorously rubbed the sticky green cube into the pristine white cotton. A green splotch grew into the chest of the shirt. Herman let out a nervous giggle and rubbed the second cube into the shirt creating another green splotch. He laughed out loud and furiously squished the third cube into the shirt, managing to spread it a little more evenly than the first two creating an all over green effect to the front of the shirt with two splotches down the middle. Herman held up the shirt in front of the tin mirror, it was like nothing he had ever seen before; it was colourful and gaudy and pure chaos. The green reminded him of something, the hills of his dreams and the strange singers yes, but something else.
The canister.
He had used the green canister for the woman with the coloured undershirts, it was at least 15 lashes and Herman had been to the lashings in the square, he could see how much it hurt. He had seen how the offenders were stripped to the waist and tied with rough ropes around wrists to a large wooden stake. He could nearly feel the pain as the lash landed on the offenders back and he suddenly saw the bloody dripping of their backs, a crimson rivulet standing out against the grey surroundings. Sweat broke out anew on his forehead, more than anything he didn’t want a lashing, and yet he couldn’t put the shirt down, the chaos was breathtaking.
The early morning was thick with fog as Herman descended the usual steps to the train platform beneath the city. His eyes darted furtively around the subterranean stop and it took every ounce of effort to keep his feet moving forward. Everyone knew, he could tell, he could see it in their eyes, in the way they avoided his looks, in the way the crowd pulsed around him as the train arrived. Herman had had a sleepless night, tossing and turning waiting for the Watchers to break down his door and haul him off in chains. He knew it must happen; he had seen the reports and had even meted out the punishments for people who broke the rules. He ran his hand up over his head across his thinning brown hair stuck to his forehead by the wet morning dew as much as his nervousness.
The doors closed and the train clattered down the tracks, but this morning the sound bellowed in Herman’s ears deafening him and drowning out the usual sighs and snorts of his fellow passengers. The wheels pounded relentlessly against the track and the sound throbbed in his head. The walls of the small crowded train car seemed to shrink in on him pushing the passengers tighter and tighter against his body until the smell was nearly unbearable. He couldn’t breathe, the air had suddenly gone stale and heavy in his mouth tasting of tin, sweat, dust, and fear. Herman raised his head and looked around the car with panicked intensity but no one else seemed to notice, everyone else was sitting or standing facing the front as normal as could be and Herman could hardly breathe. It was starting to feel like one of those mystifying wooden boxes they used to put people before they were covered with dirt, back in the old days. He could even smell the damp earth being thrown on top of him as he lay trapped in the tiny wooden box; it was a hideous putrid smell that choked off his nostrils and filled his throat.
He got off at the next stop, unable to stand the noise and the heat and the smells any longer, he pushed his way towards the door. It was two stops earlier than normal for him and he had to struggle against the flow of people pushing onto the car. They looked at him as if he was mad and Herman’s grey coat flapped behind him as he ran across the deserted platform accentuating the effect. He stumbled up the stairs tripping and tangling himself in his long grey coat emerging to see the first rays of sun rising above the horizon. It was glorious; the golden light filled the street pushing back on the undulating fog and warming him as he stood admiring the colours of orange and yellow. Breathing hard he undid the top button of his grey work shirt and took a slow deep breath as his eyes adjusted to the bright sunlight.
The streets were nearly empty, the last of the workers were making there way towards the train as Herman pushed against them and stood agape looking up towards the sky. The Watchers knew about the shirt he had defiled, he knew it, could feel it in the core of his being. He could see his name on a slip of paper being slid into a green-topped tube and his own pudgy body tied to the post as he received his sentence of lashings in the city square while an army of people looked on and shook their heads at his folly. Everyone got caught, structure brings order and order keeps chaos restrained, but chaos was beautiful. And why would something so wondrous need to be restrained? ‘Because order was necessity, without order we are no better than animals’ he told himself.
Herman repeated this to himself as he ran, his soft legs pounding the street and the blood pounding in his ears. His legs burned, his back and sides felt about to split, and his throat burned with the effort but he ran all the way back to his building and all the way up the stairs. He stood panting in front the closet door his breathing coming in ragged gasps, his grey work shirt pulled out and his pants wrinkled and both stained with the exertion of the run. Was the green shirt still there? Had the Watchers found it? Maybe he could just get rid of it, he told himself, throw away this stained shirt and get a new one somehow, carry on like it never happened. ‘That’s all it is’ he told himself, stained and ruined and nothing more, ‘it’s nothing beautiful or wondrous it is a shirt that is ruined’. He flung the door open and dove into the back of the closet coming up triumphantly with the splotchy green shirt clenched tightly in his right hand. He stood back and held the shirt out before him, it was more than an undershirt with green gelatin smeared into it and sweat stains under the arms. It was a canvas and he was Salvador Dali, he was Picasso or Monet. Herman watched the green swirl in on itself and out again, he saw the two patches, just off center and marvelled at their simplistic complication.
Standing there with his chest heaving and his head pounding as the blood raced through his body like never before, there with his eyes open and his senses filled he held the shirt from the recesses of the closet and he knew it wasn’t true. Chaos was beautiful. Chaos was wonderful. Chaos was breathtaking.












